ؙ Emotionless ؙ

2008-05-26T15:07:00.002+08:00

Its the 141th day in the year today, I don't know if I can handle my life well anymore... Its like a repeat of my primary school year, which was a real bad memory and i swear i won't talk about it to anyone, but I really don't know what to do with this, they say bottling a emotion/memory up will cause more pain and hurt. But somehow I must overcome this, and one final effort is all I need.

2008-04-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

Speech day was a success, all those hard work paid off, now I have to study for the Mid-Year Examinations. This is official, I am as unhappy as I was in my primary school days, I feel so tired and emotional and I ALMOST alway cry when I sleep. I don't know what wrong with me either, so don't ask me anything. I am also dissapointed that I may not get to attend a work attachment programm I was looking forward to, all because it clashes with my NPCC events god damn it, it isn't right, Something that I am looking forward and I could't get it, well i guess this is life. Moving on, I found that SS sucks alot, I can't memorise the bits and chunks of information on the textbook, and I alway feel like sleeping the moment I read the first line of my SS textbook, any tips on SS studying? its 2 minutes to midnight, I am going to turn in soon, so good night

2008-04-08T23:11:00.003+08:00

This week is a very chaotic one, tests on every single day, training on every day and adding to that, sleeping late every night to finish up my works, it just keep getting more stressful. I am seriously bored this few days, planning to find some things to climb, either a pole or a tree. Or well, just have to carry on doing my work then

2008-03-21T14:22:00.002+08:00

Remember when i said "this year seem to be a good start, let see how it will end"? well, i don't know how long my happy facade wil last. I have already lost half of my enthusiasm, i seem to keep on falling down. Damn, how am i supposed to be cheering people up when i am like this. There is going to be one day this year when i will really break down. I also don't know if my new classmates like me or not. what i can see is (and i think is) they like me only because i am a silly monkey. they don't like the inner me. This year was also even more stressful than my PSLE year. Now i am thinking if i should just migrate away from Singapore and live either in Japan or USA, if i could anyway. Now i just have to pick myself up, get a new trampoline and get higher.

2008-01-04T22:14:00.001+08:00

MAN am i tired. today is MOSTLY slacking day la, english period only have banding test, and CME the teacher say next friday then teach the subject, recess, i saw all my old friend, and cough talk cough about counter strike, literature go slack with 3e3, TCS session with jacob, jianjie, shun xian and a girl name kai fan i think, >< i am damn bad with names, anyway, mrs you is like, noisy la, tone down, noisy lower volume, haha, we talk mostly about counter strike AGAIN. xD now to npcc, yay i finally get a boot bigger than my old one, courtesy of chong sian sir, btw hor, the malay store got problem one leh, 4 girl already kena food poisoning then today yijin also get food poisoning, and trust me, you don't want to go to the same toilet as yijin xP. Npcc was mostly about campcraft competition la, nothing much except, THEORY ON PEGGING, LESSON 1 xD, this year seem to be a good start, let see how it will end, haha xP

2007-12-29T17:53:00.000+08:00

The blog is finally revived xD, npcc camp damn shiok sia, everyone in my squad got promoted, I feel happy for them, 16 of them work very hard. These 16 are also damn passionate about npcc, they won't miss any training without any excuses, but got 1 exception la, we made a history of whole sec2 squad pon npcc. Promotion test was hard for me, take drill for example, I for a few week keep remembering the drills, then still, halfway through drill test, i too nervous then my mind froze up. Campcraft test, to say the least, it was easy, because i ACTUALLY studied, okay, fireman chair WAS an exception. Physical test, i though i was going to fail through, but i endured, after that test, i feel like shit, leg wobble like siao. 2nd day of camp was game day, what i like most was the capture the flag, it was a draw between care and self control xD, btw, farhan sir still own us forfeit, mwhahahhaha.3rd day was cleaning day, quite fun sia, HO gave us some salsi and blackcurrent to drink, the salsi syrup taste like root beer, ROFLOLMAO XD, then still got some people get "married" xD so damn funny, after that was the promotion ceremony, i think most of the people were nervous at first, i know i was. In the end, every one sec 2 got promoted xD, today, i had a TCS with madeline mdm on msn, in the end talk about fancy drill cause maybe will cancel. In the end, we end up with a discussion session with madeline mdm, jia wei and rouhui, for the rest of the day, its damn uneventful. And i am SURE AS HELL glad to be home, i miss my damn bed. that it for today folks xD

2007-06-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Damn, Since how long i am missing from blogspot lol? classes are boring 2day, and hell, last minute chiong polish boot, still shining, weee, manage to not fall out as a casualty this time, i'm so proud of myself =), but thats a helluva way to train one's arm, good for ur body lol. Drill I was like suffocating la, like i'm drowning like that, drowning is phlegm is worse than drowning in a sea lol. Yea, so i endure till the end, and that the way i'm gonna keep it, and later is talking cock session, talk cock till like shit la. After NP, i wanna buy H-Two-O, then i found out no spare change, then when to the fruit stall to change for coin, auntie so stingy la, dun wanna give me change, say wat, buy here only, no change. WTF? After I drank H-Two-O, (I was seriously gonna get one more la, cept no money left) i went back home, showered, and blogged. Watching Black Hawk Down For The 5th time 2day. YAY!

2006-12-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

Heh long time no see my friends... Anyway could write a long story becuz my shoulder is in pain, i tell ya guy wat happened in this post.

Date:15-12-06
Place Stayed:Hotel Theme Park In Genting Highland
Weather:Most Of The Time Raining Hard
Persons:Me And My Family = We
Activities:Sleeping, Eating, Shopping, Playing Arcade And Watch Tv

Yea well, we were quite late to drive out of singapore, leaving time was to be 10am, but then with all the fuss, who would't guess time will drag eh? so by 12pm, we were at immigration stamping our passport and stuff. Then we have to stop by malaysia immigration. Finally driving on the highway to KL, Duh We have to pass by KL to go genting. So during the car ride, i slept in half of the way, too tired, too bored and too much rain. Can't really find the use of playing PSP in the car to keep me entertained yay, one thumb down for that. By the time we reach genting, the sky has clear and the AIR IS SO DAMN COLD AND FOGGY. So Yadayadayada, we get a hotel first, take some pictures, go eat, and da damn, rain again.. two thumb down for that mates CHEERS! So No Outdoor Theme Park RIDE = NO GO KART, damn it. So we go into the indoor theme park, all the damn ride is so eh... monotonous, ya monotonous, so me, my small bro and father go arcade play (my mum and elder bro go shopping for clothes) Haha Damn Fun In Arcade, get to race with my bro, do some airplane stimulator and do some shooting practices. Through i wish we could go bowling today... After playing enough video game, we join our mum and elder bro to shop. Oh yea, we watch some peeps doing some yoyo competition. Ha, that i might add is entertaining. After that we go to hotel, watch tv, go balcony breathe fresh cold air sleep. As a side note, do not eat the chicken rice at one of the chinese food court, it leaves a bad taste in ur mouth.

Date:16-12-06
Place Stayed:My Cousin House In Kuantan
Weather:Most Of The Time Raining Hard
Persons:Me, My Family, My Uncle, My Aunt And My 3 year old Cousin = We
Activities:Sleeping, Eating ,Watch Tv And Praying

Dang, after waking up, refill the thermos flask and go out and eat. After that we check out of our hotel, and put all the bag into the car, Then after that we go bowling, i had 3 strike by the way xD, but i hurt my shoulder after carrying the wrong ball(a damn heavy one it is) u can ask wisman for more details. We bowled from 1pm to 3pm. Then we hop on our car and off to the chinese temple at the genting highland, then the 6 hour road to kuantan. We reach our cuzzy house at around 9pm, we drink some tea and off we go to a hawker center. We ate hotplate tofu, pepper crab, vegetable i dun wanna know and butter pawn. Then go back cuzzy house ,played with cuzzy, watch lilo and stich 2 and hit the bunk...er i mean hit the bed. So today was nothing much.

Date:17-12-06
Place Stayed:Our Singapore Home
Weather:Most Of The Time Raining Hard
Persons:Me, My Family, My Uncle, My Aunt And My 3 year old Cousin = We
Activities:Sleeping, Eating ,Watch Tv, Shopping

Nothing much, cept go to a shopping mall which name i do not remember, i go there do nothing but eat pizza hut, then go back and drop of our cuzzy family to their house, the off we go to singapore, yay i was starting to miss my comfortable seat and my computer. HAH... So we took the shortcut to Johor, a desolated place i might add. Then we reach johor at 8.30pm i think, then go to new lucky restaurant, yeap u guess it, i mention new lucky in my pervious post, cuz that my fave restaurant in malaysia, food good, and price good and service good, everything good. haha. So then we go off to malaysia immigration to go singapore, then dunno one bas.tar.d just cut our lane, the my father's car wheel accidentally hit the stupid car, then that bas.tar.d come our of car wanna scold us, then he saw five of us(four capable of crippling his neck) then he hum ji drive out liao. So we do check liao go back singapore, but i came back cannot write blog becuz my shoulder pain becuz of the bowling accident haha. So Adio then.

2006-12-07T11:27:00.000+08:00

yay back from Malaysia 2 day ago, and my computer crash for 2 day xD. okay so I Sunday go to malaysia then tuesday come back lor. 1st day veri boring, go midvalley megamall de hotel, citetal hotel(pardon my spelling lol) , zzz. so 2nd day is fun, go to time square de amusement park, sweet. All The ride like so damn fun. haha fun fun. fun and fast mwhahahha, 3rd day go to ultama shopping centre there then shop lor, shop till 8.30pm. then i go to New Lucky Restauraut(omg my spelling sux) Eat till full, then go back to singapore at 10.30pm lor, then i want blog then cannot cuz my computer crash so much haha.i dun wanna blog everyday, cuz my life is boring gomen xD

2006-11-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

Seriouslly u guys should play Wolfenstein:Enemy Territory, Its Free and the gameplay is good man. If Anyone Of U Should Play W:ET, Go To The Game Server:[Hess]Clan Cali Xpsave, I Go By The Alias: Ronota, come find me xD

2006-11-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

Finally got sumthing to write... okay yesterday i nvr blog cuz my computer motherboard something rong, i tell u full story lah.. Okay Yesterday i woke up, i was determined to fixed my computer sound, cuz the jack is spoilt ma, so i wanna change a motherboard, my bro de old one. Then I(No one help me) fixed the my bro de motherboard perfectly(wif cuts to my hand xD), but then hor, the bios and cmos sumthing rong, nid a boot disk, cannot find, so i like wtf. Then 2day i woke up, going to change back my old motherboard, this time i wear a pair of glove... Stupid cuts still hurt man. Anyway, i fixed back liao(Wif No help again) Then now can use computer liao lor, see I am acomputer genius sia. xD

2006-11-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

Nothing cept, going to school and model for the handbook, for the school attire, sia la my hair like botak still want take pic, HELP, xDD

2006-11-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

yay crappy computer, crappy game and crappy boring day, what fun can u expect xDD okay bb

2006-11-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

Okay... nothing to say

2006-11-08T23:27:00.001+08:00

Nothing... yea nothing to write, oh wait i did write a few words...

2006-11-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

Haiz... bored nia okay bye then. P.S Happy Birthday Cheryl xDD

2006-11-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

1 word boring, xDD okay nothing to do except play W:ET, okay nothing to say liao

2006-11-05T00:13:00.000+08:00

today fun nia, go vivo city, so damn big, then go run like mad dog, then the kopitiam there so crowded (the wole vivo is crowded) so crowded ARRRRRRRR

2006-11-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

boring day and my parent dun allow me to go out, too overprotective, neone wanna trade parent? Over-protective parent here, too bad so sad for me

2006-11-02T23:18:00.001+08:00

wat can i say? nothing cept boring day la

2006-11-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

Ohight, i nvr post yesterday cuz the blogger got ploblems KNS la, lol so now i am posting so yay. WORT WORT WORT. Anyway yesterday i came to school at 8.20am, then wait for Mrs Li until 8.45am till i sianx go look for Mrs Li, then at foyer de infront carpark got police van, they i go check it out, then i saw Mrs Li there talking to a police man, then i go to the place there. Then Mrs Li ask me to guide them to the armoury( they are gonna take back the rifle) NOOOO MY RIFLE MY RIFLE... Anyway then i get to go into the police van (Front seat la, i not prisoner why go to the back XDD) then i directed them to the armoury. Then time to carry out all the rifle to the police van. Then carry carry, my pe shirt(same as the last time wich got dirty by grease) got dirtied by grease again. Then halfway ar, Mrs Li said that i small boi so strong XDD. Then after carry finish. Then go wash up and go change my clothes (lucky got bring 2 nia, so damn dirty) then go eat lor, then go give diploma form to the general offices, then go help Bala pack the brochures for the next sec 1, after that go eat liao, but worth it la, get to hold real gun, but quite old le, like from WWII like that (Mark 4 And Mark 5) Nice... Today so damn boring nothing to post so NOTHING XDDD. YAY My Longest Post!!!

2006-10-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

Today is a dirty day XDD, got dirtied by grease and dirts. Went into the amoury for the first time and carried real rifle(heavy aprox. 3-4kg?) tied them into a bundle of 4 (which was damn heavy nid 2 hand), then the girls go play wif the crank, they go race the target boards. Very lame sia, play play play =.- Then my clothes so damn dirty, then i go wear jacket over MWHAHHAAHHA.

2006-10-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Wort wort wort today so damn boring ar? Sian 2molo got npcc heng ar, then mrs kumar lose my diploma form, nid sign again, she ''misplace'' my form. Aiyo hai wo do another compo...

2006-10-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

Nothing much, except i damn sleepy. Urgh. Think of running M.HP with my habbo friend. At least got sumthing to do or else i die of boredom, rite on!!!

2006-10-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Oh wat the heck, today damn boring like siao. All the game i oredi played, then i on my computer then staring at the screen like an idoit. ahahaha. P.S Cheryl, you must be more careful. =)

2006-10-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Wa lao, KNN la, my class de some ppl totally sux to the core. Go anyhow blame me ( u noe who you are)(wans't talking about u cheryl, i noe u din't blame me hahaaha) and i not gonna forgive u, I damn pis.ed. U guys like as.ho.e like that, rou hui cry wat it gotta do with me, i din't even sabo her lor. F.c.k u go say I tell Mr Rahmat is RH. Is Mr rahmat co.keye one lor. Then u keep ignoring me, my heart very pain one leh. Thanks to Yanni, MinHui, Rouhui and classmate who console me. =D THANK THANKS. Last day of school liao. Gonna Miss all my friend. Adieu guys, Miss you guys but dun worry be happy cuz the monkey is gonna be in 2E4 with u guys =D HOHO AH AH.

2006-10-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

This gotta be the most boring day ba. I hate school holidays, i mean when there is no activities... download audition for fun, and i played. nah it was quite fun. watching my fav RvB series =D. http://jonkeytheatre.blogspot.com must watch hor =D

2006-10-23T18:27:00.000+08:00

today so damn boring. Wat kind of post exam activity is this man? They giving us all kind of shit. So I like very sian and play UNO with ppl. Then wisman and I keep singing the UNO sound. LOL. THen at Peformance lab, I snatch alot of sweet from teacher hand. LOL. Then 12.30pm end school, i felt very hungry then go buy rice and drink coke. Rouhui and XiangYi were very shocked (they tot i buy drink onli) then i eat and chat until 1.30pm then go home. Go home eat maggie mee and sleep lor. Then i woke up at 6.15pm then do blog.

2006-10-22T19:50:00.001+08:00

Yay new blog, make a blog for a movie. Its call Red Vs. Blue FUNNY MUST WATCH HOR :D

2006-10-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

Yay got stoned with my monitor!! nothing cept for sum stupid roaches in my house... GRRR DIE DIE DIE.

2006-10-19T19:29:00.000+08:00

long time no post liao, sad exam marks too, E=?/? forgot, M=67.5/100, C=75/140, S=81/90, H=24/40, F&N=63.5/100, A=59.5/100 BADD BADD

2006-10-16T12:06:00.000+08:00

wa paing, never write blog for a long time, cuz I helping my big bro in some project, in the end, take 2 days, each day i sleep at 3am, sweet boh so for the last few days damn busy. My bro de project dateline is today morning, friday get, friday=planning, saturday=doing, sunday=doing. okay la gotta go play Nostale, its cool.

2006-10-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

long time no blog, hahaha, exam over liao, think i flunk my chinese, history, F&N and art. Anway can play all day liao

2006-10-10T18:19:00.000+08:00

Sia la, all the teachers keep targeting me. But boring la. Nothing to do during exam...

2006-10-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

Boring la. Nothing to do. NOTHING TO DO.

2006-10-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

Boring average day, studying for exam nothing else.

2006-10-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

Nothing to say except got a suicide? case from my block. Sad for him. Hope he RIP... That all to it folks

2006-10-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

Finally can on the computer, last 2 day study chinese like siao, think cannot make it... Today is not an eventful day either. Now must study phrases for my English composition. Final year liao... okay, time to study liao.

2006-10-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

Well well, nothing going well. Exam are comin' READ MY SCIENCE BLOG GUYS!!!

2006-10-02T01:06:00.001+08:00

Nothing to do, cept study all the day long... haiz

2006-09-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

lame day, got late for tuition, buy macdonald go home eat, watch television then study. boring.

2006-09-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

Fun day sia. After school, go find Rabiah mam and then celebrate her b'day, then go watch the flim Romeo And Juliet, then go home study till 5.30pm then changed then go to school for mooncake festival. YAY fun, play with cheryl, wisman, yanni, erica and yun xin. Played catching like siao. cheryl is lame, but wisman the lamest. LOL! Wisman and I keep screaming like mad people like that. Then 8.30pm nid go liao, then go home change then write blog lor.

2006-09-28T18:08:00.000+08:00

As usual, it is boring. First want to go see movie postponed liao. Then still got prefect's decorate also cancelled. Then stay in student hub till 5.00 then go home. That all

2006-09-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

SO DAMN SIANZ... Do Nothing but study and also get lecture from Mr.Farid in an ice cold room for prefect meeting, after that go buy mashed potatoe from 7-11 and eat. Lol so damn boring

2006-09-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much, after school nid go swimming then go buy macdonald,eat at home and study... End Of year comin, study hard!

2006-09-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

today at school i very hyper. keep on talking talking and talking. History class there i trying to sleep and then dunno who(either cheryl or yunxin) keep throwing eraser. LOL, then math there i talk talk talk, like crazy. too bad mr yu is comin' ... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

2006-09-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

Nothing much today, watch zatch bell, go study, and go do another blog to help fellow classmate. Then do math test, then go watch tv, then go fight with my brother, then eat bean noodle then i think go to bed? haha lol

2006-09-23T18:41:00.000+08:00

Today damn boring lor, i watch super hyper force monkey team go, jimmy neutron and pokemon, then i go study chinese, then study science on internet. After 2.30pm go change and prepared to go tuition. Tuition so damn boring, go there onli test, so hard summore, after tuition buy macdonald takeaway, get in my father car then go home liao. Then go home change wash hand go eat macdonald, so boring hor?

2006-09-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

Today was both fun and boring. The boring part was during the usual lesson. Stupid summary test too. Then, after school, me and Soon Lam go find Mr.Woo, Cuz I nid to write a statement for a violent case against teacher -_-''', then after that go eat, then go polish shoe. Halfway polishing, my sirs come and say arh, polish polish polish. Very Lame Sia. Then After 15min, the sirs come back and say, can expose boot to public ar, expose boot onli in full-uni, then the other sir say polish in toilet. I go behind student hub de behind there polish, too bad polish liao no use. Then NPCC liao, take attendence, do muster parade, do campcraft test then do Drill Test, i lucky that i got leg cramp sia w00t. Campcraft and drill i pass. Now I got one Ikan Billis. Lance Coporal liao so good.

2006-09-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today was so MUCH FUN! Our Class sold all the cookie we made. Our Class mascot made it into the top 3, the reward was a little bit short of my expectation, thought it would be better for a monkey to be rewarded with a banana. Being The MONKEY RAWKZ!!!! BTW, today I am sick, lol still can blog. Next week no computer = no blogging untill exam over.

2006-09-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Well, today is the day where i move my blog from Myspace to blogspots, not much blogging gonna be happeneing through, EXAM are comin. 1E4 Study Hard!